Thursday, October 7, 2010

The Gift

Wow!!! My voice has been quiet here - stoking fires on other fronts - trying to find balance.

These last few days have been challenging. My body changes again. I KNOW I need to BE STILL and allow it to happen. However, the world does not stop because one changes. Learning my priorities - allowing ME to be - to feel - to experience - to let go.

Gentle life lessons.

I am the seventh generation. Voices in my head, in my generation, in my immediate world - - This hurts - that is painful - it is too hard. I am learning to erase that voice through LOVE, LOVE, LOVE. Redirect and raise and praise.

I find that it only hurts when I go against the flow. It is only painful when I forget to breathe. One day and baby step at a time makes hard become easier.

Yes, it is quite uncomfortable to shed a skin. Babies cry when they are teething. Growth is an uncomfortable process. Otherwise, it is uncomfortable. All growth is. Shed a skin, lose a tooth - all part of the process. I am so blessed to have gentle LLs.

The Universe prepares me for the cycle of BIRTH - this last period was quite challenging. 38 days until the egg dropped and the walls broke down. I was swollen for a week, belly protruding out and hot from my fingertips to my toes with the volcano churning within. And so vulnerable. So ungrounded in this flow of feminine ENERGY - not ready to deal with the world and my femininity - all swollen and raw as I feel now.

Thank goodness for Lucky Girl. She keeps me company and helps me stay calm. She soaks up my heat. She lays by my side and reminds me to take it slow as we nap. And then she gets me outside, sitting in the Earth, where my heat gets absorbed as I connect with the trees and we watch the squirrels.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

DIO - Done

Me and GingerMama just before the Show

Did it, done - what an AWEsome experience.
Accomplishments -
1. One outfit to enter the club - see picture above - no one recognized me tonight; not my girlfriends or their hubbies/boyfriends, not my parents - ha ha ha
2. One outfit for the performance - got my act together - borrowed a bodysuit from SG Lourdes which held my extra tits and buns in place so I could focus on my performance; forgot to pack my black heels, wore the slightly smaller pink wedges; and I fixed my wigs to two instead of three, so it could stay on my head - ha ha ha
3. One outfit for after the show - a cute and comfortable mini and tank top and all make-up off - woohoo~@~

The club was packed and jamming - full capacity -
here is video of my performance:
For more of the evening's experience, check out LAUGHter & Draguation.
I did it, I did it, I'm so excited - I just can't hide it - woohoo~@~

Friday, October 1, 2010

DIO - Dress Rehearsal

Today was the worst

It took me almost two hours to get into Drag

I am swollen and miserable - PMSing

I feel like I have gained 10 pounds since

I started Drag It Out - well, at least 7 or 8

Our dress rehearsal was supposed to start at 2:00 p.m.

I was there - dressed and ready and sweaty (it's 97 degrees outside)

The Kings and the Queens - a line up - our music

the room looks awesome - the decorations are fabulous

There is major excitement

We finally get started at 3:15 p.m.

We are obviously not concerned for time here.

Ha ha ha.

The club is a little cold for my outfit

And I am not feeling so good today.
I am also # 18 on the program. Aahhhhhhh~@~
Quiet humming laughter - haaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaa

I do not feel confident about my routine, my outfit
I am in a room full of women (and some men) who can truly dance and sing
And have been dressing up and performing for a while
What was I thinking when I signed up for this?

Finally, it is my turn.

SG Tara and SG Tabatha give me a great opening -

fabu fanfare - they even sing a Hava Nagila

all eyes are on me
for about 3 seconds... ha ha ha

My heels are too high, my dress is too long, my butt padding

is falling down and off as I move, my wigs are coming off
I am not lip syncing at the same time as my lyrics
ha ha ha

Thank Goddess no one is paying attention
these are the longest 3 minutes 10 seconds ever

I get off the stage and feel like crying

I still have a 45 minute drive home;

20 minutes to get out of my getup
and 30 minutes to wash off my makeup

I am so emotional

too many hormones going on inside
Tomorrow will be a much better day - ha ha ha
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