Monday, October 26, 2009
(Begun writing on 7/2/09)
This flow has brought up a lot of FEELINGS for me.
As I expel what my body no longer needs, I feel the need to let go and release other things - people, places, memories. I'm not always aware that I am holding on until somethings sets me off and the feelings come up.
In the past, I may have acted or more appropriately REACTED to these feelings. Now, I let them come up and play with them. I might express them in ART or go into my body - a walk, a bike ride, on the mat with YOGA - in order to let it go through.
Last night I was blessed to have Goddess Annette here. We sang, we meditated, we prayed, we played, we created. We pulled out images and words that called us. We painted canvases - we chose emotional landscapes. We called the Goddesses to dance among us and INspire our creativity.
(Continued on 10/19/09)
I read the wisdom of these words as I flow again. The temperatures dropped drastically Sunday morning. From almost 90 degrees on Saturday afternoon to 54 degrees by Sunday morning at 5:30 a.m. We knew it was coming. The forecasters had been preparing us all week. However, the chill in the bones from a windlashing is always a refreshing reminder. Creeps right into the cell memory and opens the floodgates.
I start to flow and reMEMBER to stay loose - muscles relaxed and warm. Itsy Bitsy Yoga with the most beautiful toddlers and Mama Goddesses and my Mom. Then Mom and I went home to paint and nap and eat yummy raw food. Then she took a nap with me on the bed with Zeko. He purred me to sleep as he rubbed my belly.
It is such perfect timing. I am flowing with the Moon - the New Moon, that is. I am emptying and releasing and letting go to create a sacred container to fill again.
I am staying loose, muscles relaxed - and I flow.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Full moon on September 3, 2009 WSM Noah and I were on the beach - Chinky Beach in Tel Aviv, Israel. It was our last evening here - a Friday night. We went for a sunset swim, a dip into the Mediterranean Sea. We played in her soft waves and swayed within her current.
As the sun disappeared and the moon rose we heard the drums. Beating, rapping, mesmerizing - a melody from the past, seeping into my bones and making me move. We dried off and walked towards the end of the beach where the circle had been formed - hearts being called by the ancient rhythms beating in our souls. Tarboukas and cymbals and drums, oh my!!
I feel it - the throbbing, the banging, the bass - what a sound!!! My body feels it - I can't control it - I just want to move and dance and BE. As did the other souls who felt the music and just let themselves be.
Thank you for this last gift goodbye on our last night in the Aaretz.
Peace & Love, Just Because,
Thursday, October 1, 2009
As a Curandera, when I leave my Sacred Sanctuary and immerse myself in the outside world, I put on a love shield.
I consciously choose how I express myself in the world. My body - a blank canvas to cover and caress with beautiful colors and prints and fabrics. I love labels that touch my skin that say BE Present. I love images of the Lotus on my backside.
My secret magic weapon - Goddess Gems. For me, these Goddess Gems are amulets and talismans of love. Mine are created by Goddess Bliss. In her wisdom and with her hands, she creates powerful pieces of eye candy oozing with power and love. My GG sits between the heart and throat chakra - it warms me up as I reMEMBER that I am not alone and all is well. It shields me from lower energies and strengthens me to give more and be more.
Goddess Bliss has been providing me with her divine creations for the last five years. I call and tell her what is going on in my life and the colors that speak to me. I love how she listens and gives me space to hear myself. She allows herself to be guided by her intuition and creativity in the process of making GG. She fills her heart with love as she goes through boxes of materials looking for just the right combination of gems, clasps, beads and string.
Soon thereafter, a yummy package arrives. Full of glitter and twinkle and gemstones - each piece she creates for me is imbued with her healing and loving energy. Simple and yet powerful, the energy is palpable. I am blessed to have one around my neck as I face the world. My Goddess allow me to take in emotions and energies and let them go through and out of me. I help others cleanse and heal as I take on and release their energies.
She sent me three new ones to help me when I returned home from Europe and Israel. She created three new Goddess Gems for me - each unique and serving their own purpose. Perfectly timed, they were waiting here for me to help me deal with the difficult transition home. And how these gentle companions have helped me deal and heal through Great Auntie Sylvia in a coma, funerals, injuries and hurt feelings.
Thank you My Curandera Goddess Sister for trusting that voice within and allowing yourself to serve and heal through your hands and your art and these Goddess Gems. May the love you send out come back to you tenfold.
Om Shanti, Shanti, Shanti.
Peace & Love, Just Because,