Boxes already prepared
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Boxes already prepared
Friday, March 19, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
I am happy -
I am blessed
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
I start tight and cold and vulnerable.
She lets her fingers do the walking
as they prod and poke and pinch
she digs and backtracks and widens the space
I can take a deeper breath - woo hoo
she massages my diaphragm;
no more heavy exertion from breathing
The house is clean.
Jordan came and cleaned
the hairs, the fleas, the skin, the oils
vacuumed and mopped right off of my floors.
My liver still hurts - when I stretch my right arm,
My kidneys are still sore -
Some muscle is stressed out between the breast
It’s dreary here today and cold.
Made veggie soup - warm and hearty -
Raising my healing vibration - made a playlist
“When I trust and I let go,
Showing up today for my commitments.
Up at 5:30 a.m. with GingerMama.
Cold 52 degrees on March 16, 2010
in Hollywood, Florida.
What is going on?
I have been here 13 years
This is the coldest ever.
Time for a change.
Called Sister Goddess Christina at 6:30 a.m.
Sorted and started a load of laundry.
Cleaned up after GingerMama and the Meows -
washed dishes, cleaned the litterbox,
cleaned and filled the water bowls.
Not sure where my wallet is.
On my way out the door -
Embracing what is.
We have this Omazing 2.1 mile walk around
a lake and in this wonderful tree forest.
We get to Pavilion 4 just in time to greet
a few laughter yoginis and we start.
HO HO HA HA HA
HO HO HA HA HA
This is my first circle back.
I am feeling so energized from my walk -
longest one in 2 weeks.
A little winded but excited,
I slow it all down a little.
We do finger HaHas and have parties
in our hands.
We stretch and shake and laugh.
It feels so good.
From the head down to to the toes,
we activate our chakras and
We gibberish and Hokey-Pokey
What a glorious day.
The cold is easing as
SG Christina and I leave for Birthday Breakfast.
Our three year ritual -
First challenge to this new food lifestyle,
I order some eggs and potatoes
which comes with a shortstack - 3 pancakes.
Such huge breakfasts.
My body is craving protein -
I dip a potato into the egg and eat it up.
27 bites, who’s counting?
The texture is gooey and yummy and warm.
My stomach seems to be okay.
So far, so good.
I manage to eat 1 egg,
My eyes wanting so much more
I eat slow and I stop when full -
Drink some lemon water.
Waiting for the burp to come up -
waiting for the sweet release of things
moving through my body easily.
I sop the pancake in a little maple syrup
Chew all the gooey concoction I can manage.
We take our time and eat slow.
About fifteen minutes later,
my body is showing signs of stress.
It’s hard to burp and I really have to fart -
that’s what egg does to me.
We go to another location for an Illy espresso
coffee to complete the Birthday Breakfast.
The opportunity to walk helps me pass gas.
Thank Goddess for bodily functions
We stretch on the front lawn.
a good stretch and nap does a body good.
Tonight, we meet Auntie Sylvia at Toojay’s.
She wanted Chinese buffet.
Too many factors out of my control.
Just thinking about it makes me queasy.
Toojay’s menu promises a vegetarian sandwich
with roasted vegetables and a little sauerkraut.
Plus all of Auntie Sylvia’s favorite dishes.
We meet there at 5:30 p.m.
We get a cozy little spot away
from the fans and the A/C vents.
I order the Vegetable Ciabbata Sandwich -
Auntie Sylvia gets my potato pancake
in exchange for her coleslaw.
WSM Noah takes claim to half of my sandwich.
Again, very big portions.
how slow we eat.
Dinner is a pleasure
I take little bites and chew.
I enjoy the texture of my food
and being with family.
My body is relatively happy -
sated by all these different
food tastes after a week of famine.
We are home by 8:00 p.m.
In bed and sleeping by 9:00 p.m.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Hard time waking up this morning.
I am at Yoga One for Itsy Bitsy Yoga -
And then we dissipate,
bouncing on our blue hoppity hippity balls
We say goodbye, we hug, we laugh,
I am tired, worn out and empty
allowing me to ground and clear
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
Today - I immerse myself
I pack a cooler of "safe" food for the weekend -
sweet songs soothe my soul
I sing along about
healed and whole and healthy
I sleep ..... zzzzzzz
Thursday, March 11, 2010
It's one of the things I say
I still feel my lungs bang on
pulled out the reformer to protect my back.
We slow the pace way down so
I can listen to how my body i feeling -
what it can handle.
so I can breathe fully again.
Laying down after my workout
Elly Belly comes to play on my belly
kneading the new space created from stretching
I feel the expansiveness that has been missing.
Thank you for this blessing of slowing down.
I am still a little feverish.
However, I am feeling hungry.
My body leads me to banana.
I take three slices of banana and mush it up
on top of this OMazing German bread
(my soul brought me this manna)
from the GermanHaus
Seven Grain Power
INGREDIENTS: STONE GROUND WHOLE GRAIN WHEAT, RYE,
OATS, BARLEY, SPELT, MILLET & BROWN RICE, WHEAT FLOUR,
FILTERED WATER, FLAX, PUMPKIN, SESAME & SUNFLOWER
SEEDS, BUTTERMILK, SEA SALT, NATURAL RYE SOUR, SPICES,
I am eating very small bits at a time
focusing on the 50 chews
(which is so hard, I tend to lose count
somewhere in the middle of a swallow) -
ouch, that one was too fast -
not possible to type and chew at the same time -
I feel as it goes down my esophagus,
I feel where it cross the liver,
going past the gallbladder and
that is where it slows down
right at the opening of the stomach -
there was a lot of undigested bread and banana.
Need to slow down even more.
Drank some water with lemon.
Lemon seems to help with the burping.
It cleanses and opens as it goes down.
Standing to see if I can burp more.
I burp, I drink a little more water.
I sit down and I take an even smaller bite.
I feel the millet on my tongue,
a little piece of sunﬂower seed between my teeth.
Itʼs like a sensation explosion in my mouth.
Nap, jacuzzi, massage -
that is what I need to restore myself today
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
the toxins inside might affect me and my behavior
I already feel irritated and unhappy
I slept about 4 hours last night -
Karen Drucker's healing words
soothing my soul.
I never knew constipation felt like this
I reMIND myself that I
I feel my breath go deep into my sacrum
An opening, a widening in my chest cavity
Monday, March 8, 2010
GingerMama seems to sense what is going on
She walks slow motion with me as I
three blocks around the neighborhood,
or perhaps it's the release of toxins
Even gurgling in my intestines
Pretty OMazing for me
Just to BE and let my body BE
Breathing - LISTENing
to what my body is telling me
Sending love to my organs -
my liver, my kidney, my gallbladder,
my lungs, my esophagus, my intestines,
my colon, my sacrum -
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE
ERASE, ERASE, ERASE