When I am lost inside my rich world I tend to forget to come out and play. I can spend days at home without venturing outside during the light(well, all that has changed since Ginger). I prefer communing with nature than with PEOPLE. I always thought I was really shy. And then I reMEMBERed. When I was little I wasn't shy. I was assertive and confident and happy. Something happened to my heart - little by little - I started closing it up, building a wall - letting the outside world fade away as I explored within. Daily OM says shyness might be a defense. That I might be hiding.
Now, I usually run and hide when I feel hurt or don't understand the energies or PEOPLE around me. Or if I feel PAIN. Then I hide within my sacred spaces until I can open my heart again and re-examine what is going on.
This week has been especially wonderful and energetically tough. Great Aunties here together, lots of family visiting and opening up our home and sacred space and BEING. Lots of old patterns (of thought, behavior and attitudes) have come up. New Moon. OVERwhelm. And the slightly chilly weather to blow it all away once it has served its purpose.
I have been thinking about this HIDING. Giving it great thought. I always thought I was HIBERNATING. The weather hit 55 degrees in Florida and the sweatshirts and jackets and closed shoes came out. For me, hibernating lets me restore and replenish. Gives me time to absorb and chew on my experiences. Gives me an opportunity to ground and center myself. Helps me regain my balance. HIDING - that is running away and losing faith and withdrawing from LIFE. I did this too for years. During the "dePRESSion".
What helped me then was BABY STEPS. A little bit every day. Making a COMMITment to something new or different. And being CONSISTent. Small steps outside my door every day with Ginger Mama, not just in the dark of the morning but when the sun rises too. Getting to know my neighbors and the squirrels that reside in the trees. Praying with the trees as the wind blows through. Feeling the sun on my face. Just being ME and spreading ripples of LOVE energy out into the world.
Daily OM writes: "Stepping out of the wings and letting your light shine is actually a way to serve the planet. We each have a responsibility to contribute to our community, and we do this when we let ourselves be seen. It doesn’t do anyone any good when we try to hide. We are all beings of light and we are here to light the way for each other ..... Shine your light out into the world, bless those around you by sharing your gifts, and watch the universe glow."
Off to laugh and shine and glow. Tee hee!!! Yipee!!!