Mosquito Message

Ouch!!!

The burning and itching sensation

as the site where she sat and

sucked my blood starts to get

red hot and irritated.

I used to kill mosquitoes -

quite violently too.

Smacking them right out of existence -

not even wondering what gift they had for me -

since they chose to interact with me.

I didn't know that all blood biting mosquitos

are female - MAMAS in fact -

needing our blood to produce eggs.

Instead of my childhood reaction of

anger and hatred to the MOSQUITO,

I take a deep breath

and open to grace.

Sitting here outside with her buzzing around

I let go

I surrender.

No more resistance.

I speak to Madame Mosquito -

I tell her if she is to bite me

she might as well jump onto my arm

so I can get a closer look at her.

A more intimate connection with me.

The gift of the Mosquito

- her tenacity and strength -

always adapting to her environment

Never letting thing gets in the way of her progress

Changing the way I look at things -

seeing it from Mama Mosquito's eyes -

a new perspective

I am such a giant in her world -

so much blood and nutrients

beyond her wildest imagination.

I embrace this situation

and all the gifts of Mama Mosquito

I am blessed that she chose me

to learn these lessons

It's here!!!

It came in the mail yesterday. Right when I needed a little pick me up and some sunshine to lighten up all the rain.

I knew it was coming. Goddess Bliss had given me a sneak peek. I just had no idea how much bliss it would provide. And how healing it feels to wear. I opened the package and sparkly pink confetti jumped out and a huge smile erupted on my face. Tee hee!!!

And then I reached in and found a pink card (her signature color along with the glitter, of course) with these words:

"Dearest Goddess, This piece has been waiting for you. What more can I say. Birth, rebirth, fertility, ocean and love. Wear it in good health my friend!" Goddess Bliss

And I reached my fingers further into the envelope and retrieved the black gauzy bag with a most beautiful handcrafted piece. I could feel the energy she had instilled within. The necklace was practically vibrating in my hand. Full of love and fertility and wisdom and experience and HEALING. Twisting and twirling each bead she touched and patiently put together. Marveling at the detail and beauty. And with a little heart and arrow clasp. Tee hee!!!



That is her gift, you know. Healing ART. Goddess Bliss intuits what is needed - what colors work - what energy to share - and puts it in her creations and sends them out into the world. She listens and absorbs and embraces the feelings and conversations and then turns around and creates whatever healing is needed through her ART.

I have been blessed to be in her home and art studio and watch her play. How she creates out of thin air and puts it all together with a flair and savoir-faire. How she puts her HEART into it as her fingers deftly dance on whatever surface and medium she uses. And how whatever she touches is full of love and peace and healing energy - like a day at the beach.

I am so grateful to have this Goddess Sister in my life. Her friendship, her wisdom, her love has helped me through many a moment. To have this necklace in my possession, feelings it powerful energy as I move forward (albeit micromovements) on this journey of motherhood and babies strengthens me - reMINDs me that YES, I too can do this. My magical talisman has arrived. I am open and prepared. Bring it on Universe!!! My time has come.

Thank you Goddess Bliss for your gift, your time, your generosity, your love, your friendship. This means so much to me. And just holding it feels so yummy and good. ALMOST as if you were here with me Meow.

Rollercoaster of Life

This last month has been like a blur - came back from North Carolina and it took me 5 days to adjust and center and reTURN to the world I had left behind.  I tried to jump right back into my exercise routines:  walking and Yoga and Pilates.

I love, love, love YOGA!!! I love seeing how strong my body is - how I can twist and turn and hold my body in positions I never thought I could.  Doing a handstand against the wall, I did not focus on my hands and bent my pillars of support and came crashing down.  And of course, I kept on going like it did not happen.  

However, a huge bruise on my backside left me reeling.  The picture above is two days after the fall and the one below is three days later.  

Now, I know that my JOB is to show up. Whatever and wherever I am committed to, no matter what I feel internally, it is my job to show up.  That night at Laughter Yoga, Goddess Sergi from the Sun Sentinel showed up.  She attended our class and interviewed the members of our circle.  We had a lovely session and although we laughed and created powerful love and light in our corner of the Universe, I felt a little depleted and drained.  The next day, I could barely function.  The New Moon leaving me weak and sleepy.  Barely functioning - just getting by - ODAAT - one day at a time.  One foot in front of the other.  Feeling empty and broken.  Feeling sad.

I realize how the Universe gives me gentle life lessons when I fall out of balance (tee hee!!!). Some people need accidents and drama.  I just need a little tenderness and swelling to make me turn within and see what is out of sorts.

And it's this same LIFE LESSON about going slow, taking my time, being present in the moment rather than trying to rush through life to catch up.  Catch up to what?  My mind can tell you a long list of TO-DO's that it thinks needed to be done yesterday.  Tee hee!!!

However, this reMINDer is about PRIORITIES.  Slowing down - spending time with the Meows and GingerMama after being away for four days.  Allowing my body to decompress and let go of the experiences and people I met and settle down to my home pace before plunging into my activities and busy-ness.

I am listening OH Universe - I am listening to all of the messages my body has for me.

And of course, the gift for showing up - a fabulous article by Goddess Sergi in the Sun Sentinel Community section and some fantastic photos.  Tee hee!!!  That's me doing some Argument laughter.

I slept and swam the whole weekend, never turned on my computer, hung out with the little PEEPS and healed myself back to a new state of normal.  or not.  

Life is good and like a roller coaster.  Sometimes I'm up and sometimes I'm down.  And then I pick myself up and start dancing again!!!