Day 4 - Food and Moi

The most important and intimate relationship I've ever had

FOOD

It started at my mother's nipple.

As far as I know, it is only HERE and NOW

that I am consciously exploring this IN-to-me relationship

I was always afraid to fast.

The Day of Atonement, and a forced fast

was always a miserable experience for me.

Day 4 without food (by choice) and I am not even hungry

I haven't been able to poop either.

And I am full of aloe vera juice -

I drank 36 ounces last night

hoping to jump start my system -

Drinking tea and hot water with parsley

My stomach is full and tight - a lump sitting on top

of my already stressed pelvis and sacrum.

Teeth are so yummy -

feels good to play with my tongue

on such smooth surfaces

I am feverish. Toxins floating inside.

I feel the red hot heat in my blood,

pulsing in my veins.

My ener-CHI is a little low

I am presenting a Key Note on Healing with Humor.

My computer is acting up

It deletes my speech and keeps my heartrate up

as I improvise and go to Plan B

I shower. I sing. I set my intentions.

Sharing my JOY.

Helping to HEAL.

Being BREATHing me.

I put on my purple bra -

surround myself with loving healing energy.

I place jade and rose quartz by my heart.

I am so deep into my body's sensations as

I get out of the car

I focus on breathing and walking

through the parking lot and into the hotel.

I am here and yet, in my own world of body -

every step, every breath, every word

taking a toll on my nervous system

I find a table - I meet people - I smell food.

I am not hungry. I am not nervous. I just AM.

Feeling, Allowing, Embracing the moment.

I drink my aloe juice spiked water. I breathe.

I allow myself to feel within my environment.

When it becomes too much, I get up and walk

I shake it all about. I breathe. I smile.

When it is my turn, I breathe again.

I head for the front. I pray to be an

instrument for peace and love just because.

I speak. We laugh. We feel.

A fabulous event. I am parched.

I am hot. I am cold.

I go home, I lay down.

Sister Goddess Galant is coming tomorrow.

Woo hoo ~@~